do you believe in the meaning of dreams?

i'm beginning to.

my dreams are telling what my subconscious thinks about.


~~
A lot.

"So accept my emotion, do not take it as an offensive gesture
It's just the epitome of my soul
And I must be me..."

"Tie my hands
What am I gonna be
What have I done so bad
What is my destiny
Tie my hands
What am I supposed to see
What have I done so bad
What am I gonna be.."
It's just the epitome of my soul
And I must be me.."

What am I going to be?
What are we going to be?
What CAN we be?

I'm not going to deny it anymore.. I'm into you.
You say you're over it.. but I kind of feel the baggage.
Don't lie. I can be your friend. Talk to me.
Make me smile. I can make you smile.


Ha... this isn't like the past. Nothing like anything I've tried for.
That makes me believe that I could be happy.

--
Slow down.. I just wanna get to know you...
--

Male Friend:
the entire male race should feel this way.

Me:
like they want to be a manwhore for just a LITTLE longer before commitment?
i think that the entire male race DOES feel this way. well, majority.
because in some way, shape, or form, some bitch came along and crushed him.
...so that's why he doesn't want commitment, love, or boyfriend status.

Male Friend:
lol. people get crushed all the time.
it's happened to all of us.
you, me, him.
can't blame him for feeling this way. can't blame me for wanting to find out what's out there before setting up camp.

Me:
same goes for girls too
yeap.

-
oh, life.
as a friend, i'd be like no other.
given the chance.
give me the chance.

From a cheesy email thinger... ugh I'm sleepy.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go,
you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to
my heart so I never lose you.


Sleep.

Night falls.
Sleepy sleepy.
RAMBLING on.

Call me [crazy].


I just want something fresh.

..And a smile! .. wanting to smile.


The usual non-teenage angst.. more like.. seeing a new light.

Rather than mull over how frustrating some people can be... I think I must be with others who don't frustrate me. People whose presence can make me relax. A few come to mind.

That rap-your-arms-around-that-special-person-so-you-feel-like-everything's-going-to-be-okay type feeling. (haha, back to those. scroll down for a copy-paste later.)


Junior year, man. Schedule's sexy. Now to add more spice, some sass.

How [about] that.

I'm just rambling. Haven't partied and 'let loose' so-to-speak in a while. I've kind of grown really uptight. I need to unwind. Chill out. Ugh.

Maybe [you] can help me out. Whoever you are.

Let's chill. =]



~~

copied from my previous blog somewhere. lol.

type loves. Mar 7, '08 6:48 PM

yes, i know this has been done before...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5WgmbMW7Ek

in response/inspiration..
I'd like that sit-and-stare-at-you-til-i-make-you-feel-the-same-way-about-me type love,
that i-just-can't-wait-to-see-you-again type love,
that wait-for-the-right-moment-to-tell-you-everything type love,
that just-one-hug-will-make-you-feel-better-about-everything type love,
that lying-down-underneath-the-stars-with-sand-in-your-toes type love,
that sing-your-song-out-loud-with-all-you've-got type love,
that magical-connection-when-you-strike-the-right-chord type love,
that let's-watch-the-sunrise-over-the-east-and-the-sunset-over-the-west-type love,
that i-will-wait-for-you-to-take-my-breath-away type love,
that single-moment-can-change-your-life type love,
that love.. that love that makes me feel whole.
that makes me smile.
that love whose song he sings from inside his heart tells me everything i wished for.
that love where the look in his eyes comforts my every insecurity.
that love whose hand fits mine, whose eyes lock into mine, whose dreams are my dreams, whose wishes are my wishes...
that love who is too shy to tell me the way i'm too shy to tell him...
that love where i can be confident in myself, he can be confident in himself, and yet we can return to each other, both individual people, both respecting the other, both taking our time.


~~
[now that I look back at this.. wtf was i thinking when i wrote that haha.]