i've been surprising myself lately.

where's the fine line between overconfidence/boastfulness and remaining confident/humble?

i hope i don't annoy people. yes, people say "don't CARE what people think". no, no i say. you should care. you can't step all over people to get what you think is yours. you can't just say whatever you want to say.

i've always been a reserved person. but the BUSINESS calls for a more confident and ambitious side, one that i know i'm capable of. so, if i had to ask, which was the REAL me... i'm not sure. i just know that i'll always at least strive to be humble.

if i seem like i'm flaunting my blessings, i'm sorry. tell me so.


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i've been finding God lately. at least, getting back in touch with my spiritual side. i have grave disappointments in the Church as an institution. Went on New Year's day, and the priest was the most egotistical, fire-and-brimstone kind of guy.. a total turn-off, a total 'if you don't do this you will DIE' kind of attitude that defied everything i learned from Catholic school for 12 years. Children are Angels of God, not "stupid." other religions like Islam and Judaism DO share the same God... and he said that the Catholic church was THE best, and our God is THE best. Bull, if you ask me.

i hope that someday, and soon, i'll work towards a better understanding of the meaning of FAITH, and HOPE. around my neck, i wear a ring that says, "faith". i want to be able to live up to that. Faith in myself, in God, in others, in my friends, family, work life, in my relationships, etc. there will be no good in having a lack of faith.

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currently just sitting in my apartment, alone. cleaning up for a get-together tomorrow.

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i don't want to be stuck in the status quo. and i definitely have goals and plans for the future.

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i'll always be with you. if you need me. and that goes vice versa. i hope, and pray, and have FAITH, in my friends. that they will stand by me.