Yes, I thought I could get away with creating a new blog just for straight up writing.. but I can't get away from the ambiguous heart-felt statements that I'm so used to blurbing out!


So here's the one I just wrote while fighting sleepiness and a smile after a whirlwind of unexpected messages. Haha...:




psh. who's playin' who?


all i know is that i can't help but smile.






yeah, i've been through my share of ish, son. i was so emo and shit for a long time... so much so that i could kick myself just thinking about those times. i've got writings upon writings to prove it. i've got my ups and downs. life has its ups and downs. we've all got our insecurities.
trust and mistrust.
faith and faithlessness.


i.. don't know. countless times i gave up on so many things; but this early in the game, when it's so easy to talk to you and everything.. psh, i feel more confidence than usual. i don't know, maybe you make me want to match your confidence or something. ^_^


i know that friendship is valuable. i'm not looking for anything more than that right now. i've learned my lesson so-to-speak. and i'm nice enough to think about other people in a situation like mine.. (which, btw, you don't even know my situation, son! psssh. maybe i'll tell you. someday. laaadeedaa.)

so you chill, son! i got this on lock. i ain't easy, nor am i always miss nice girl. never really thought of myself in that light. i've always been the pessimistic one ... but i'm someone who strives to get what she wants when she thinks it's really worth it. (maybe i think you're really worth it. don't ask me why.. !)

so yea. i argue that you just don't know me well enough (mmm....yet. psh. xP).

even if you wanna 'shut me down' in that way, i don't care. be my friend! friends (for the most part lol) are awesome. =D


it's up to you to make the next move.
but... we don't have to end in checkmate just yet. haha~



now, time for sleep. nitey nite.